Today our little one turned 13 months and I just had to share about the incredible transformation we have seen in him over the past few weeks. As most of you know--its been a tough first year for us. While we love Austin so much, he has just been a pretty "high needs" little boy. We have done the best we can and just kept striving for the fact that ONE day it would get easier!
And I while I wont say its EASY now, its definitely different.
I have begun to see more of his personality come out, I have had many days over the past two weeks that I could honestly say were "fun, " and I am falling in love with my little boy all over again. Too many days over the past week I have had a glimpse of him that literally made me choke with emotion--I am finally seeing out of the first year of "survival" mode and seeing him through new eyes.
While I love seeing him this way--I have to tell you--that I can fully understand now why parents go crazy with grief and pain when things happen to their kids...because the love you have for your child is something that crosses all barriers of "understanding." I *knew* that with my head before--but did not know it with my heart like I know it now.
Now dont get me wrong, I have loved him dearly for the past year--but it was not until these past few weeks that I felt he really understood that and I could see him loving me back--which just took it all to another level. Shea and I sometimes just find ourselves staring at him-either laughing or just smiling in awe of "our child."
Anyways--as you can see...its all made me a little sappy! I am just thankful for this time in his and our lives.
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